That Feeling

I used to think I was the only one who had this feeling, but from recent conversations with friends and also research, I found out that almost 75% of the current youth population suffer front this, it is slowly rising to the number one killer amongst us,

it is not a disease, it is not a virus, it is not cancer, and NO it's not AIDS. A child's heartache, killer of souls, the sender of the huge burden that weighs our mind down, the destroyer of moods, the slayer of hope, murderer of expectations and dreams, this is Depression.

If I don't have first hand experience on this, I won't be talking to you, if I don't think it is worthy, I won't be talking to you, If I don't think it is deadly, I won't be talking to you, if I don't think you have the power to overcome it, I most definitely won't be talking to you. A feeling that takes complete control of your mind and body, that saddens your soul, that feeling that completely destroys your self worth, that feeling that cripples your self esteem, that feeling that makes you question your mentality, keeps you at bay from happiness, that feeling that draws you away from feeling that there is God and that he Is there watching you feel this way, basically makes you question God, that feeling that makes you think nothing has gone right and nothing probably will, that feeling that makes you think your worries are endless and would continue so, that feeling that takes you away from yourself and delivers you to sorrow and pain, I tell you this is a cancerous feeling, a feeling that turns a man into his own greatest enemy, make you never want to think of anything close to happiness, that feeling that makes you lose focus of what is real and what's not, I don't know if you understand what I am talking about? The people you expect to lift you up, brutally crush you down. That feeling that deprives you of a smile, that feeling you can't explain, that feeling that agonizingly makes a man take his own life. Depression is a bitch.

I tell you most solemnly, you have complete control over everything going on around you, the worst thing to do when you have a problem Is to run out to ask someone else for a solution, because gradually you are losing your own mind, when you start the problem solving from yourself, you tend to control it when it comes again, why do you think they say experience is the best teacher? Your mind is the most powerful strength you can ever have, I believe hope, faith and joy all comes down to our mind and how we structure it, because even cancer can be beaten with our minds and of course with radiation and chemo, but ultimately it comes down to our mind and how we plan to overcome it. I believe everything happens for a reason, everything has it's purpose, wen you are in a position that you feel you can't get out of, just look around and see someone going through something way worse than you can imagine, if that doesn't push you to silver yours, what will? Problems aren't forever, people think God delivers blessings at doorsteps, he has already given us that power to achieve it, to grab for ourselves, we need to stimulate our minds with happiness and confidence. Confidence is key to whatever you have going on with you, because you know you have a God that never fails, a God that has brought you this far, when you realise all this, then you would know that it does get better, it always does. Our God never sleeps. God help us.